Friday, October 28, 2011

why not?

i'm not sure why, but I have the desire to blog. so, this very well may be the most random blog post yet as I don't really have any clue where it'll go.

last night we had our fist snow here in boston! it was AWESOME! I was washing dishes, looked outside and saw that the rain was falling really slowly, and then realized that it was SNOW!! AHH!! SO MUCH GOODNESS!! I stopped doing the dishes and started running around yelling "IT'S SNOWING! EVERYBODY! IT'S SNOWINGGGG!!!" and only the adorable little freshman, Eun, from next door came out to see. She was pretty stoked, but nearly as stoked as I was. for real. I then called Yuki who was probably more amused by my own yelling about the snow then the snow itself. I gchatted bro in all caps and he was also amused, but not nearly as amused as me. Sometimes I feel like a little kid. Let's be honest, I basically am *always* a little kid. heh.

which reminds, today in physics, I came in and I was going off about something rather, OH, i told my TA he looked ready to rob a store (he was wearing a beanie, c'mon, a dead give away for robbers), aNyWAY, my tablemate was like "chacha, you're crazy. you're *always* freaking crazy and amusing" or something like that. and i got to thinking, i really am. like, i really have such a lowered threshold for "embarrassment" and "reservedness" than most, I'm not exactly sure why. but like, all in good humor, right? like, I'm not about to go get drunk and start, whatchamacallit, "spring break"-ing it because that's just dumb, right? that's flashing someone? idk, kind of basing that off of my knowledge from Arrested Development. speaking of which. THERE'S A NEW SEASON?! SAYYY WHATT??? I need to brush up on all the other seasons. and then after this next season there's a movie?! SWEET! oh right, but back to my main point: i am crazy enough to hop across the zebra crossings (that's what they call crosswalks in south africa and i guess elsewhere? SO GOOD) by landing only on the white lines. just ask my friends here. or dalking, i do that a lot (dancing while walking...i think i ranted about this already in a previous blog???). but i mean, you're just sitting in the car at a stop light, don't lie, you totally watch the people crossing, right?! I figure, I'm always up for being entertained, and if I saw someone slo-mo running across, or hopping on the white lines, or dancing (all of which I do) my day would be just that much brighter. So:

why not?

A simple question, eh? I pose this to myself nearly everyday.

As soon as I start to do something and find myself feeling awkward I immediately re-evaluate the situation and ask "why am I not going to do this? is it because it's genuinely not appropriate or is it because of societal standards placed that deem it 'un-cool'?" If it's the former, I continue to stop. If it's the latter, I force myself to get past it and carry on. Oh, I think this post is a lot like the previous one I just made. Hmm....oh well. y'all can stop reading now if you want. i'm just enjoying myself, hahaha....at the end of the day though, isn't that what's most important? In the wise words of bro, "it's important to be able to be alone and not be lonely". Well put bro, well put. I think that's what is making the difference this year. I am alone right now, in my room, and i'm fine. i was doing some chinese earlier (should be doing more of that, instead of this, seeing as I have an exam on monday, but ah well, cravings to write are rare and I was hoping to update this once a week) and now i'm blogging. all is well.

ah hooligans. i just saw a group of four young men cross Mem. drive and then go to the river. I think i saw a ligher. idk. see, that's, that is dumb. idk, there i go making blatant judgements and not knowing what's fully going on. but you know what, at the moment, I'm in a "getoffamylawn" mood. so sue me. :P damn, i'll make a fine old person one day, yup yup, chiper and spunky and judging as all get out. :P also, i'm not gonna lie, i'm pretty stoked to have my own place so i can get kittens!! SOOOO MANY KITTIES!!

so i forgot i was writing a blog post...heh. short attention span. i just made a delicious cinnamon, peach, and plum chutney/sauce. not sure what i'll do with it, but making fruit sauces is like my favorite thing in the world. SOOOO EASY. anyway, they were *super* ripe so I had to do something with them.

yup yup, now i'm not done with the writing mood and into studying chinese. i'll talk to y'all later! love you! (whoever it is i'm speaking to...never really sure who reads this. i know bro has it marked in his google reading...)

-jnd

5 comments:

  1. Yeah! I get to be first to post. There is a certain wonderful freedom in not being embarrassed about silly innocent behavior. it DOES give people something to look at and grin and be encouraged to be a little different themselves, or at least to enjoy the moment, and briefly be relieved of the pressures of life. As we use to say in one of my counseling classes, be careful of people who are "shoulding" all over themselves, they are usually very unhappy. I remember a time in my life of silly antics and also being amazed at my very low (or is it high?) threshold for embarrassment. What was particularly fun about it was that a great many people thought they knew me because of it, when in fact I still had a very private self and life. Ahhhh, Chacha enjoy it. It is nice to be able to take oneself seriously, and to also have a lighthearted touch sometimes. Ti amo.

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  2. Ah, si! Sei la prima! :) Grazie mamma, hai ragione. I think it is key to be able to laugh things off, because it helps to keep things in perspective. :) The trouble I have it maintaining a good equilibrium between enjoying life and being serious about studies. I am slowly enjoying studying more and more, but the stress of grades puts, I feel, an unfortunate and un-necessary burden/stress in the attainment of knowledge. Sigh, the challenges of getting older and making "grown-up" decisions....

    Anch'io ti amo molto! Ciao ciao!! :)

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  3. This is one of my favorite aspects of your personality, Chacha. You rock!

    Funny you mention grades and knowledge. There was a study awhile back about how grades--or feedback--affected intrinsic motivation (http://psycnet.apa.org/journals/edu/78/3/210/). The article I read was a study done with grade school-aged children. In summary, those who *weren't* graded on a task felt more freedom to explore different possibilities and take the task further than the requirements. Those who *were* graded (even if the grade was "good") generally lost interest at the task at hand after receiving the feedback.

    Interesting stuff.

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  4. > " i told my TA he looked ready to rob a store (he was wearing a beanie"

    Ah, Californian. :-p

    I remember when I used to call them "beanies". See, us Bostonians, since *everyone* has to wear these things in the cold, we simply call them "hats". A "beanie" is a hat with a little propeller on it.

    Also, whenever I see you dalking or something like it, it really provokes an interesting internal struggle in me. I cringe because I don't think I could act like that, but then, that ability is also what allows you to form such interesting relationships with so many people including all your professors! I'm very impressed by that.

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  5. first, bro, you're born and reared in California....second, i know! i *purposefully* use the word beanie because I'm proud to be Californian! :) Hats are more rigid things!

    As for the other things, hahahahahah, i just laugh. Yo, I'm so going to have fun with your kiddos. :)

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