Friday, October 28, 2011

why not?

i'm not sure why, but I have the desire to blog. so, this very well may be the most random blog post yet as I don't really have any clue where it'll go.

last night we had our fist snow here in boston! it was AWESOME! I was washing dishes, looked outside and saw that the rain was falling really slowly, and then realized that it was SNOW!! AHH!! SO MUCH GOODNESS!! I stopped doing the dishes and started running around yelling "IT'S SNOWING! EVERYBODY! IT'S SNOWINGGGG!!!" and only the adorable little freshman, Eun, from next door came out to see. She was pretty stoked, but nearly as stoked as I was. for real. I then called Yuki who was probably more amused by my own yelling about the snow then the snow itself. I gchatted bro in all caps and he was also amused, but not nearly as amused as me. Sometimes I feel like a little kid. Let's be honest, I basically am *always* a little kid. heh.

which reminds, today in physics, I came in and I was going off about something rather, OH, i told my TA he looked ready to rob a store (he was wearing a beanie, c'mon, a dead give away for robbers), aNyWAY, my tablemate was like "chacha, you're crazy. you're *always* freaking crazy and amusing" or something like that. and i got to thinking, i really am. like, i really have such a lowered threshold for "embarrassment" and "reservedness" than most, I'm not exactly sure why. but like, all in good humor, right? like, I'm not about to go get drunk and start, whatchamacallit, "spring break"-ing it because that's just dumb, right? that's flashing someone? idk, kind of basing that off of my knowledge from Arrested Development. speaking of which. THERE'S A NEW SEASON?! SAYYY WHATT??? I need to brush up on all the other seasons. and then after this next season there's a movie?! SWEET! oh right, but back to my main point: i am crazy enough to hop across the zebra crossings (that's what they call crosswalks in south africa and i guess elsewhere? SO GOOD) by landing only on the white lines. just ask my friends here. or dalking, i do that a lot (dancing while walking...i think i ranted about this already in a previous blog???). but i mean, you're just sitting in the car at a stop light, don't lie, you totally watch the people crossing, right?! I figure, I'm always up for being entertained, and if I saw someone slo-mo running across, or hopping on the white lines, or dancing (all of which I do) my day would be just that much brighter. So:

why not?

A simple question, eh? I pose this to myself nearly everyday.

As soon as I start to do something and find myself feeling awkward I immediately re-evaluate the situation and ask "why am I not going to do this? is it because it's genuinely not appropriate or is it because of societal standards placed that deem it 'un-cool'?" If it's the former, I continue to stop. If it's the latter, I force myself to get past it and carry on. Oh, I think this post is a lot like the previous one I just made. Hmm....oh well. y'all can stop reading now if you want. i'm just enjoying myself, hahaha....at the end of the day though, isn't that what's most important? In the wise words of bro, "it's important to be able to be alone and not be lonely". Well put bro, well put. I think that's what is making the difference this year. I am alone right now, in my room, and i'm fine. i was doing some chinese earlier (should be doing more of that, instead of this, seeing as I have an exam on monday, but ah well, cravings to write are rare and I was hoping to update this once a week) and now i'm blogging. all is well.

ah hooligans. i just saw a group of four young men cross Mem. drive and then go to the river. I think i saw a ligher. idk. see, that's, that is dumb. idk, there i go making blatant judgements and not knowing what's fully going on. but you know what, at the moment, I'm in a "getoffamylawn" mood. so sue me. :P damn, i'll make a fine old person one day, yup yup, chiper and spunky and judging as all get out. :P also, i'm not gonna lie, i'm pretty stoked to have my own place so i can get kittens!! SOOOO MANY KITTIES!!

so i forgot i was writing a blog post...heh. short attention span. i just made a delicious cinnamon, peach, and plum chutney/sauce. not sure what i'll do with it, but making fruit sauces is like my favorite thing in the world. SOOOO EASY. anyway, they were *super* ripe so I had to do something with them.

yup yup, now i'm not done with the writing mood and into studying chinese. i'll talk to y'all later! love you! (whoever it is i'm speaking to...never really sure who reads this. i know bro has it marked in his google reading...)

-jnd

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

"loose" vs. "lose"

Random thought for the day:

Why do we pronounce "lose" like we do when we pronounce "choose" like we do... this is really bothering me. Heh. I feel like we should also have "meese" the plural of "moose" and "shoop" the singular of "sheep"....

then again, i'm a rebel.

okay, i need to go study for my 2.001 (mechE) exam tomorrow and I just finished my 8.02 exam. partial credit is my best friend. haha...i was totally rocking out to my music and jamming on the air drums before the exam and my friends and TA were like "you're crazy".... hah, tell me something I don't know!

But seriously, it's my thing now, i don't just "walk" somewhere, I bob and dance and skip... I figure, i like to do so when I'm listening to music *anyway* might as well do so and then give others the liberty to be themselves! This quote has really been jiving with me lately:

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

I'm tired of feeling inadequate, ergo, I'm going to stop. I'm going to think that I have something to offer, even if, it's just a smile and a crazy girl dancing down the hallway. Something good is bound to come from that, right? :)

Ta ta the loves of my life! <3

-jnd